Thursday, November 15, 2012

Well I Guess It's Time to Come Out and Say It...



There's a topic that I've been somewhat avoiding here on the blog. I've been hesitant to mention too much about our upcoming move to America. 

You see, up until just a few weeks ago, the move was a very unsure thing. We've been waiting and waiting and waiting for Steven's visa to process, and while we knew we'd be spending Christmas in the USA we weren't sure if we'd be doing so as American residents or if we'd be returning to Germany after the holidays to keep on waiting some more. 

Well, we got a letter in the mail two weeks ago announcing that Steven's final interview would take place later on this month. The final visa interview is step number 7 on the US Immigration Services "how to apply" guide. The last step on the guide. We've made it to the end.

We are coming home. 

So, if you've been wondering why things have been a bit absent here on the blog lately, that is why. Wanting to avoid paying another full month's rent and also hoping to spend as much time with family before we leave, Steven and I have decided to move in with his family for the rest of our stay here.

With the help of his wonderful mother and sister, we spent all of yesterday boxing up our entire apartment. This was hard for me. Don't get me wrong, I won't really miss the apartment itself; the kitchen seemed like it was put together with duct tape and bubble gum (seriously landlord, one nail on a wall is NOT enough to hang an entire cabinet on, thank you very much) and I'm very happy that I will never have to look at the atrocity that is tangerine orange and dark blue sponge painted walls ever again...

But the first eighteen months of our married life were spent there, in that little crappy apartment in Frankfurt, Germany. To see it empty and devoid of any personality or memories tugged at my heartstrings.

We handed over the key to our landlord and drove away, and in many ways I feel like we were reaching the end of a chapter. I know that feeling will be much stronger in just a few weeks time. 

Steven and I never planned to live in Germany after getting married. We had plans to jump right on our (American) education and start building a life for ourselves. When we learned we'd have to live in Germany to wait out his visa processing, we were both disappointed. Delaying our plans even six months seemed far less than ideal and a total waste of time.

Well six months turned to a year, which then turned to a year and a half...and it has been the happiest, most wonderful waste of time I've ever experienced. God/fate/the universe had something planned for us that we hadn't expected or desired and I couldn't be more grateful.

As you can imagine, I'm experiencing a lot of mixed feelings. I'm excited (SO EXCITED) to start wrapping up my education. I'm excited to drive a car. I'm excited to be able to drink as much water as I want in a restaurant without having to pay for it. I'm excited for cheaper gas and food and clothes, and for California sunshine, and Disneyland, and the beach.

I'm dreading leaving a place I've grown to love so much. I'm nervous about the financial burdens that will come along with Steven and I both being in school. I'm terrified that I will go stir-crazy in a place where international travel is much more difficult and expensive.

Still, I trust that things are happening when and how they should be. I have faith that this move is right for us and our future, and a step in a positive direction.


But Germany, I will most certainly miss you. 

22 comments:

JC Carter said...

Your feelings are understandable. Change is terrifying, but its also a new adventure.

And theres a million things to travel to and see in the US and nearby as well!

GOOD LUCK!

Jenna said...

wow, I'm so happy for you guys, despite how bitter sweet everything feels at the moment. I can only imagine the feelings that would go through my head if Jurgen and I were about to make a permanent move to the states, probably would be similar to what you're feeling now. Enjoy your last month or so in Germany and good luck with the move... such exciting times ahead for you two!

xxx
Jenna

ifs ands Butts said...

Ah the time has come! Can't believe it but I know more excitement is in store. Cherish these last weeks!

KatyK said...

Change is scary, but I'm so happy that you guys will be able to continue your education here in the states. I'm sure you'll find ways around your travel bug. I have a good friend here that manages to leave the country several times a year on the cheap...I should find out his secrets.

Megan said...

i dont know why, but i have tears STREAMING down my cheeks. I guess because i hope im writing a post just like this next year...because i have serious seasonal affect going on because its been dark for days...because little things like driving a car, cheap gas, good food, and bottomless drinks and ice makes my heart beat....because i am also scared that when that day comes, ill have horrible reverse culture shock, ill regret being selfish and spoiled and not taking in everything this great (and sometimes horrible) country has to offer...people dont realise the emotions expats go through..our lives seem so glamorous and easy..and while it is that and more..it is also incredibly hard and the personal struggle is so great.

I am so excited for you two and more excited to HOPEFULLY be dining with the two of you (all of us as american residents) soon!

xxxxxx

Lauren {everyday ATLAS} said...

I'm so sorry that it's not working out to stay in Europe, but all good things must come to an end...so new wonderful chapters can begin! God's plan for us sometimes don't seem to make sense, but just like living in Europe didn't make sense at first, this won't either. Oh, and you'll just have to focus more on South and Central America as your travel destination now!

Casey said...

Sad face...and happy face. I can TOTALLY understand the mixed emotions you've got going on about moving home, to America, but leaving beautiful, beautiful Germany and Europe behind. In just a year and 8 months the hubby and I will be doing the same thing. I felt like I could have been writing this post myself!

Good luck to you, girl!! I know we never got to meet up while here in Germany, but maybe when we're both back in the US?! Stranger things have happened! :)

Autumn said...

I concur with everyone here...change is scary! The great thing though? Road trips. They obviously probably aren't as cool as the trips that could be made in Europe, but we went to 8 different states this summer and to all of the museums and "native" food our heart could content and it was pretty satisfying.

Also, if you ever want to visit the south, we have a guest bedroom waiting for you. I love the south, but I don't feel like it is a place many visit.

Being a broke college student with my husband was probably my favorite part of my marriage so far :)

Ashlee said...

sounds like a lot to take in - but I am sure you both will be able to handle it! I would definitley tink of this as the end of a chapter and the start to a new part of your life. It will all work out in the end just how it should!!

Mimi Finerty said...

its exciting that you guys finally get to start a new chapter! I look forward to reading all about it and following you guys as you disappear. It seems like I might be taking up your place in Germany is my boyfriend gets offered a job. Change is scary but once you take the plunge its not so bad. And in your case your going home. How exciting!

Karm said...

Wow. How exciting!
I am happy and thrilled for you both to be back in the U.S.

Lil' Bit and Nan said...

Ya!!!!! You are coming home! You can be my permanent model! My tall lil' sis is coming home! XOXO - Bethany

Alyx said...

haha get ready for some reverse culture shock! you going back to CA?

chelsea.lynn said...

Good luck on the move back! Anxious to hear about the transition of moving back to the states! Even when we went back to visit it seemed so different and weird!

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Camila Carneiro said...

Your mixed feelings make total sense, a new chapter in life is always both exciting and scary...
But hang in there and good luck with your move back to the US ;)
xox
www.camilagcarneiro.blogspot.com.br

Sara Louise said...

Oh wow! How exciting and terrifying! Best of luck to you both on this next wonderful chapter in your lives together :)

Ella-Lauren said...

I am a big believer in things happening for a reason...everything will work out ok :) and Disney is a big plus to be heading to!!! All the best on your journey back home!

Ashley Anderson said...

OHMYGOSH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! WAAAAHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I'M SO EXCITED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

we need to hang out ASAP when youre settled in :) and have a photo shoot..and teach me stuff... haha. I'm so happy for you :) I can't wait!!!

Aspiring Kennedy said...

Congratulations on finally reaching the end of the immigration process for Steven. It's definitely a big step to move back to the states, but I'm sure you are glad to finally know for sure that it is happening. Even though international travel is a little more difficult, I know you'll find plenty of traveling to do in California.

Nikki | The Ginger Diaries said...

Oh, Daryl! this is fantastic news! I'm happy you and Steven finally get to go home and really can start building up the lives you always planned on living :) And hey, now you can go explore that amazing country of yours. And Canada! I lOVE everything I've seen from Canada and am trying to get Kenneth to go there in the summer. Won't work though, haha. And I've heard great things about South America too :) Just don't go there alone, I'd die from concern about you! x

Nikki | The Ginger Diaries said...

Oh, and yes, bottomless drinks = best thing about America! So were the cheap clothes.

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